Little Girl Lost

Originally written 5.19.08

Little girl with the sparkle in her eye
So much hope but every night she cries
So much hurt for such a young child
Wondering where she belongs, wanting to fit in
Always feeling as though she was infereor
Seeing people around her believing they were so much better
Admiring people who had the boldness to go out and just do
Being torn between two homes and having to decide
When she was not at one for the other she would cry
Never having anyone to hold her up
Never having anyone tell her that she is wonderful
One person was her rock, her strength
He let her know how wonderful she was, and encouraged her dreams
Unfortunately his postivity did not outweigh the negative
So into a funk she sank
A ten year old child with the weight of the world on her shoulders
Tears fell, her heart broke, she felt so lost, so uncertain
She did not know who she was, or what she was capable of
Negative words dround out her optimism and strip her innocence
Going through life always uncertain
Feeling as if she never quite got it right
Feeling so lost, so confused, so negelcted
So mentally beaten she just felt like giving up
Knowing how no one wants her and yet here she is
Where could she go? What could she do?
She just held it in and did the best she could
Even though at night she would cry
During the day she had a smile on her face
She figured the best way to beat this was with optimism
If she ignored the pain it would go away
What happens when it doesn’t?

Me

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2 comments

  1. Wow. I’m sorry you had to go through this and feel like this. Do you feel like it made you a stronger person? In some ways our childhoods were similar. My dad was my rock and my mom was ice cold. My dad wasn’t perfect though. He could be abusive. Did you/do you feel more sadness or anger? Anger has burned in me my whole life. Most girls cry, I flare with rage. I’m glad to know you and I think you are an intelligent, strong and insightful woman.

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